Letters to Laura is the story of one woman’s journey from heartbreak to healing. Told through a series of letters, this unique epistolary offers insight into coming out of the closet, losing your virginity, and learning how to genuinely grieve in the face of loss.
People don’t have to die to leave us and when two women—madly in love—break apart, the leaving is all too real. In this inspiringly raw work, grief shows its true nature: that of a healer. How much pain have you shoved down into the depths of your broken heart? Perhaps the light needed for your darkness lies between the lines of one brave woman’s willingness to be exposed.
To tell you the truth, I’m not sure how long it’s been since we broke up. And by “we broke up,” I mean when you broke up with me. I’d like to insert some kind of cruel comment here about how awful it was or just how horrible of a person you are; but, in all honesty, today is just not one of those days. I’m sure it’s been no more than two months since our time ran out, but in an effort to keep myself busy and moving forward, I’ve completely misplaced time.
I planned on starting this journal over a month ago, when my pain was still fresh. Yet whenever the thought of writing any of this down reared its ugly head, a panicked frenzy would take over and it became hard to think, even to breathe.
I convinced myself that drinking a beer with friends or watching a movie online would be a better use of my evenings, an easier option anyways. I wasn’t ready then, ready to be this candid.
Having my inner thoughts and emotions laid out like this is frightening, but locking them inside until I’m a bitter, lonely person is even more terrifying.
Today, I missed you. I mean, I missed you like crazy the first couple weeks, then less and less as the weeks wore on. The missing turned into something less painful, less achy. When the longing attacked, it usually mellowed into peace pretty quick.
But today…I missed you. The kind of missing felt when someone has died and you know you’ll never see them again, they’re forever beyond your reach. I took deep breaths and tried distracting myself.
I forced myself to focus hard at work, encouraged myself to throw on some fun clothes and sing at one of the local taverns tonight. I even told myself it was okay to laugh with friends and enjoy a well–deserved Gin & Tonic.
I chose to keep walking.
About the Author:
Wesley Rivers is a no–nonsense individual with a strong disgust for fruitless endeavors. However if you point out how whimsical she can be, she will simply smile and reply: “but with a purpose.” Wesley never avoids being brash when it’s needed, determined to see herself through her own heart rather than anyone else’s. She finds staring into one’s own darkness to be very therapeutic and so shies away from stories, movies, or entertainment that hinges too heavily on formulas, trope–ing, or “feel good” material.
Wesley is enthralled with Asian pop culture, expressing her adoration for anime, K–pop and historical Asian folklore on a daily basis. Much of her inspiration comes from the various art forms of these cultures. She adores foxes and often times plays with the idea that she is indeed the reincarnation of a Kitsune (Japanese nine-tailed fox Yokai).
Being part of the community herself, Wesley has strong ties to LGBT advocacy and social activism. She will also be the first to admit that she finds two men engaging in sexual acts to be too stunning for words, never hiding that she hopes to come back in the next life as a gay man “…in a better world of course.”
She is a dedicated minimalist, quoted saying… “The hoarding of things is death to all the experience life can offer.” Wesley Rivers adores the refinement of tea; she believes there to be more culture in a bag of tea leaves than in the entire world. Wesley sees no difference between children with fur and children without, having five fur–babies: two cats and three dogs. She believes all life matters and the idea that some matter more is primarily what’s wrong with the world.
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